Time has stopped me in my tracks this weekend. The realisation that I have two sons hurtling towards their seventh and fifth birthdays seems unreal. Arranging celebrations is one thing but we are also redecorating their bedrooms over the next couple of months, and the themes and detail that are being considered are far removed from the ones that they loved when they were pre-schoolers.
In some cultures children under the age of seven are believed to be ‘in God’s hands’. Beyond their seventh birthday they begin to make their own life decisions, and step towards building the person that they will become as an adult, but before then they are not restricted. They are neither pure nor impure. They are treasured. Their seventh birthday is a milestone and we are about to come across that for the first time.
It’s not only age that is a factor. Unpacking their school bags I found information on Year 1 and Year 2 tucked inside. I’ve only just about got my head around having two children at school, never mind them moving up and out of the Early Years Foundation Stage. I’m not sure I’m quite ready for both of my older children to be in a more formal level of education with specific homework and learning themes.
I’m sure that we all want time to slow down on occasion. We all have our moments when we wish we could go back in time, and perhaps even forwards. And as we sit and ponder this, time quietly ticks away. My husband recently asked me whether if, given the choice, I would go back in time and talk to my former self, or go forwards in time and see what the future holds. The more I thought about it, the harder the decision became. I think on balance it would have to be going backwards. I would give anything for another moment with my grandparents. I’d love to tell them that they would have three more great-grandchildren. That we would always make sure that they and all that they were and did were remembered and talked about as our family grows up. But going forwards might have its advantages too. Knowing if there’s some big event around the corner that I could prepare for better. Knowing if my health improves, stays the same, or deteriorates further would be useful. Knowing how much I should push myself now and whether or not that would have a positive or negative impact. Oh the decisions and thoughts!
What would you choose? I’d be fascinated to know if you have a strong feeling one way or another or might sit on the fence a little like me?!
For now though, I’m going to treasure all that I have and head back into my family life for the remainder of the weekend.